The unsinkable Molly Brown

   

I was talking to a friend of mine yesterday about being the girl left behind. She had been dealt  the same life card as me. Her husband, like mine, had "moved on" to greener pastures and was suggesting that she do the same. I must say I do obsess about Rodger with Fluffy. I see them in my minds eye. They are Hallmark card happy. He's romantic and thoughtful,in a way he never was with me, She makes him smile, and his heart melt. Could there be anyone more perfect for him?


 And me? Well I am the villain in this fairy story, the troll, the wolf and cackling witch with venomous fruit and veg corner store, all rolled into one. The, one size fits all, toxic bundle.I stare into the mirror and ask:"Who is the fairest in the land?" I see his parents. They never liked me anyhow. Their beady little eyes twinkle with unabridged hearty snobbery. Why it's Fluff , of course, their admiration for Fluff is clear and boundless.Ask us something a little more challenging, please!". So " The Fairest in the Land, is ahead in the popularity poles.....whilst Scrooge- like I begrudge him this happiness and quietly brew my cyanide souffle!  Why should this matter? It just does.A lot.


And then, I got cross. Hey wait a minute .... what kind of sick thinking is this?  Why should I buy this ? 
Prosecution: Accused state your full name please. 
Roger: errrrr Roger the artful dodger.


It's not quite simple as that is it. 


But still....do I really deserve this? Am I really all that warty on the nose like? And ....is this really the end of the road for me? Yes, I'm Horton, up the tree, with 5 white and red speckled eggs, and Rodger, playing the part of Maizie flits here and there, with Fluff, of course. Is it time to give up? No...this is a world where existing looks fantastic, this is the dark underworld of broken souls, frozen, inactive and I'm gonna brew me up a good batch of fury and say ENOUGH!
Flee this place, and move on girl. Stay away from the marshes, don't look at their faces - don't let them sink you. 
Why, I'll be the unsinkable Molly Brown in Lifeboat 6 - Damn them all , Roger,Fluff, and the snooty,ex in-laws....
I can do hard things, I can do hard things with a smile, It's sink or swim, and by golly, I'm gonna swim!